One of my recurring waking nightmares is the possible collapse of our civilization and the ecosystem that sustains it. I have tried to stop worrying about this possibility since the doctors told me in September that I have metastatic breast cancer. But the angst runs deep.
In chemotherapy, begun a month ago, I find I spend a lot of time reading novels. Here I am, writing a novel, but I don't sit around reading novels much unless they were assigned for a class I took (in grad school) or now as part of my writing group's reading program. However with chemo I am forced to rest in bed; surfing the internet for too long makes me feel terrible, so I read, and read fiction, not the usual non-fiction/journalism I tend to consume like potato chips.
Last week I stayed up all night reading Jose Saramago's Blindness. In this novel, a city is suddenly stricken with a plague of blindness - everybody eventually goes blind, and the collapse of society ensues. We follow a doctor, his wife, and a band of fellow travelers as they struggle to survive in the madness. It's harrowing and I could not put it down.
A few days later I found myself leafing through Daniel Defoe's Journal of a Plague Year, a fictionalized account (published as "true") of the great plague in 17th century London. I merely dipped into the book, enough to capture stories and horrific visions (giant pits for burying the dead, townspeople wandering the countryside looking for food and shelter, etc.)
Defoe led me to hunt for a Doris Lessing novel with a similar theme - there it was on the study shelf: Memoirs of a Survivor. I read that yesterday. In it an elderly woman in an apartment block in an unnamed city (resembling London) takes in an orphan girl, watches the chaos ensuing from societal collapse from her window, and hallucinates an alternative reality just beyond her house walls.
The above are all kin to Octavia Butler's Parable of the Talents and Parable of the Sower, two linked novels portraying a woman's struggle to survive and prevail on the West Coast of the USA as society falls apart. The images of urban warfare and of marauding gangs walking up Interstate 5 from L.A. to Seattle have haunted me for years. Butler's America looks very much like my own, and the destruction, mayhem and collapse she depicts could so easily happen around me. She imagines what lies just on the other side of our fragile civilization.
The logical culmination of a collapse book series would be Cormac McCarthy's bestseller, The Road. But his work is so dark, and a paragraph quoted in a review was so horrific, that I've told myself best not to read this one until I am out of the woods with my illness. On the other hand, I wonder if reading all these collapse novels will have inoculated me so that I won't be quite so susceptible to the horrors if and when I do read The Road.
At the very least, I have a fabulous reading list for a very depressing college literature course. Or maybe there's a publishable article in here somewhere...